click

i've just had one of the most amazing clicking experiences in my life! i lost my sense of smell and taste for bout a week!and it was all delicious. mmm-mmm.

i know. schizo. but i'm pretty thankful for my bout of illness-well at least now. something clicked inside.dunno how dunno why but did. still dun like the 'outta body' floaty feeling and the overall lethargy, but i reckon sometimes rips in the status quo like going without something-absence? - is altogether most marvellous. you get to create, innovate and venture into grounds you would not have otherwise stepped into... besides, that you get more appreciative of the things you once had and had always taken for granted (clichéd,-but must agree there is truth in it)

like going without my nose and with limp tastebuds...boy was that hard. coowend schmell or taes wha i was cookeen or eateen; couldn't smell the people around me to know who was there or not, or whether it was time i took a bath... but coping-mechanism kicked in. used my ears and eyes more to detect and recognise, created more colourful bland food (i figured since couldn't taste,lose the flavour...), used ,more pepper, garlic, wasabi, played with textures of food and made sculptures and platescapes ...had whole lot of fun. yes she's being silly again. but you can't quite blame a ditz for being silly can you?

have always wondered what it would be like to be blind or deaf or paralysed. used to pray and ask God to let me get into an accident so i could be either one, and see the world most differently...though i'm glad He didn't fulfil this request .but think i wouldn't half-mind even now...it would kinda be like seeing paintings and masses of interweaving colours in your mind when you think of numbers, words or music. i do wonder if other people do see them sometimes.